God is So Good

God is so good...
God is so good...
God is so good..
Is so good to me...

Begitulah kira2 lagu yg dinyanyiin E di sunday school..
Gw ga pernah ajarin.. Guru ss-nya yg ajarin.. En one day, tiba2 dia nyanyi sendiri pas lagi main.. (Ehh inget2 lg, karena papanya ajarin dia lagunya sambil ntn video ss di IG.. Hehe)

Anyway, busway...
Tapi beneran loh Tuhan itu baik!
Percaya deh.. Gw ngomong gini bukannya gara2 abis ketiban rejeki nomplok or menang lotere..
Malahan, tadi abis chat ama laki gw.. Ngebahas soal persediaan tabungan yang mulai menipis... En bikin gw hrs mulai membudget ulang pengeluaran2 kitehh, alias makin kencengin ikat pinggang..

Sebenernya lebih gampang kalo gw tutup mata aja en let it flow (ga tau ngeflow kemana).. Tapi gw orgnya ga tahan, kalo ngeliat ato berasa sesuatu dah diluar jalur, pasti bawaannya pengen ngecek en beresin... Ga ada yg keluar jalur jg, tetep aja dicek, biar make sure masi tetap di jalurnya.. Sempet agak dilema sih.. Kalo gw itung2 gini, apa artinya gw ga percaya en berserah kepada Tuhan that He will provide for our family??
Tapi dipikir2.. Nggak juga lah.. Kan kita harus jadi good steward juga atas apa yg ud dipercayakan Tuhan buat kita..

Akhirnyaaa.. Tung ting tung ting tung.. Otak en jari gw sibuk ngitung2.. En taaadaaa... Jadilah budget baru dg versi lbh slim tapi tetep comfy.. Haha..
Abis itung2, hasilnya itu sebenernya menyatakan bahwa selama ini, kalo bukan karena kasih karunia dan kebaikan Tuhan, kita sekeluarga mah udah ga bakalan survive!!
Tapi, karena kebaikan Tuhan, tau2 smuanya bisa aja terpenuhi...

Trus barusan gw baca renungan soal Zakaria dan Elisabet yang dikasi baby Yohanes Pembabtis.. Mereka berdoa terus ga menyerah utk minta anak, en eventually God answer their prayer..
So, baiknya lagi, Tuhan tuh ga cm mencukupkan secara jasmani dan finansial.. Tuhan juga kasi gw pupuk iman.. Diingetin lagi, org2 yg dulu2 yg udaj mengalami kesetiaan dan kebaikan Tuhan..

Our God never fails, He never sleep and He can do anything!!

I am in a good and save hand...
Are u?

Being SAHM

Being a stay at home mom (SAHM) is more like in a love and hate relationship.. At one moment u love it and so grateful about it.. At another time, u may hate it and wish u are doing something else than being with your kids...

I only have a 2 yo son at this moment.. But around 12-2pm, he can drive me insane by refusing to take a nap.. Just like today..

Sometimes, when my mood and temper is not so good, i really tempted to pinch or smack him on the butt!! And i would feel awful afterwards.. And worst, im not teaching him anything other than losing my self control.. :(

Today, i was tempted again!!
Did pinch him a little, but then i remembered.. Im not teaching him anything by doing this, so i stopped.. I just stopped and really struggled at what to do next.. I tried to talked to him, i tried to be nice to him, but his eagerness to stay awake is stronger!

Finally, i gave up.. I asked myself, whats the most important thing in life.. Whats the life lessons that i or him can learn at this point? After all, its not algebra or fluency in English, or calculus or anything like that.. I answered myself, i think the best thing that i can teach my son atm is to have self control, to enjoy life, be easy on yourself, enjoy each other company while u can, and creates good memories.. Making sure that my son knows that i love him..

I think those are more important than having him take his nap.. Its more important than getting things done around the house..

Sometimes i envy my friends who are casing their carries out there... Yet, im grateful at where i am now and will not want to trade it with anything else in this world..

However, when somebody make a comment that being a SAHM is an easy job or like doing nothing, i am totally disagree and will advise the person to try it out him/herself before he/she make that kind of statement..

If u r a SAHM then u'll know what im talking about.. ;)

Be careful with what u ask for..

Hari ini, seperti biasa.. E susah bgt diajak tdr siang.. Pdhl dah jelas bgt dy tuh dah ngantuk.. Gw coba ajak masuk kamar, udah nyalain ac, dah dinyanyiin lullaby, ehhh begitu masuk kamar malah seger.. Ennn, malah gw yg ngantuk.. Hehe..

Akhirnya gw dah desperate, gw doa dalem hati.. Tuhan, tolong lahhh bikin anakku ini tidur sblm si mba dateng (biasa mba cuci gosok dtg jam 2an).. Wkt sudah menunjukkan pukul 1, ga ada tanda2 E mau menyerah tdr.. Akhir gw pura2 tdr.. Sampe ajak mobil2an dy tdr.. Ehh.. Ga lama, denger bunyi gedubrak!!

E dah tergeletak di lantai, dg posisi telentang.. En nangis kejer..
Jiahhh!! Jatohh dia..
Gw gendong lah naek.. Pegang kepalanya.. Wuih, ga kyk biasanya, kali ini beneran benjol en mayan gede.. En keliatannya E bener2 kesakitan..

Cepet2lah gw ambil obat andalan gw utk benjol en diolesin ke kepalanya.. Dy ga mo kasi gw pegang.. Kyknya jatoh kali ini, mengalahkan sakit jatoh yg sebelom2nya..

Abis insiden jatoh, nangis2 kejer, akhirnya terlelap jugalah si E.. Fiuhh!! Akhirnya tidur siang juga ini anak... Gw liat jam, 1:30pm.. Doa gw dijawab sih.. E tdr sblm jam 2pm.. Tapi, ga nyangka, harus lewatin insiden ini dulu..

Next time, i have to be careful with what i ask for.. En mgkn doanya hrs lbh specific lg.. Hehe..