Being SAHM

Being a stay at home mom (SAHM) is more like in a love and hate relationship.. At one moment u love it and so grateful about it.. At another time, u may hate it and wish u are doing something else than being with your kids...

I only have a 2 yo son at this moment.. But around 12-2pm, he can drive me insane by refusing to take a nap.. Just like today..

Sometimes, when my mood and temper is not so good, i really tempted to pinch or smack him on the butt!! And i would feel awful afterwards.. And worst, im not teaching him anything other than losing my self control.. :(

Today, i was tempted again!!
Did pinch him a little, but then i remembered.. Im not teaching him anything by doing this, so i stopped.. I just stopped and really struggled at what to do next.. I tried to talked to him, i tried to be nice to him, but his eagerness to stay awake is stronger!

Finally, i gave up.. I asked myself, whats the most important thing in life.. Whats the life lessons that i or him can learn at this point? After all, its not algebra or fluency in English, or calculus or anything like that.. I answered myself, i think the best thing that i can teach my son atm is to have self control, to enjoy life, be easy on yourself, enjoy each other company while u can, and creates good memories.. Making sure that my son knows that i love him..

I think those are more important than having him take his nap.. Its more important than getting things done around the house..

Sometimes i envy my friends who are casing their carries out there... Yet, im grateful at where i am now and will not want to trade it with anything else in this world..

However, when somebody make a comment that being a SAHM is an easy job or like doing nothing, i am totally disagree and will advise the person to try it out him/herself before he/she make that kind of statement..

If u r a SAHM then u'll know what im talking about.. ;)