Kesellllll!!

Duhhh ga tau napa hari ini bawaannya kesellll bgt...

Ceritanya mo ke kantor imigrasi mo perpanjang paspor n bikin paspor kya...
Smua org tau klo mo bikin paspor hrs dtg pagi2 jam 7 nongkrong di kantornya dr kantornya blm buka...

Ehhh ga tau kena angin apa, laki gw yakin bgt kucuk2 dtg jam 9 bakalan masi bs dpt quota... Tadi malahan udah mo jam 10 sampe sana, dy masi pede aja dpt... Gw mah udah pasrah aja n berkali2 tempted utk bilang ga bakalan dpt.. bener aja, sampe sana, udah abis lah quotanya... Disuruh balik lg besok jam 7 pagi.. ternyata quota prioritas hny utk 20 org.. thats what wise ppl called the early bird gets the freshest bread... (Something like that?!)

Alhasil gw jd bete berat..
Sebelomnya lg yg bikin tambah telat itu adl kita ke kantor dl utk fotocopy docs krn printer di rmh rusak...
En tiap gw blg mo benerin printer, eh laki gw malah suruh ganti printer (which keluar lbh bnyk duit lg)... -_-"
Suruh ganti jg ga dibeliin... Cm ngomong aja tp ga ada aksinya..

Trus dr kantor taro kya di car seat.. ehhh tuh anak pake gumoh/muntah mayan bnyk.. ngotorin bajunya sendiri dan car seat bnyk bgt.. haizz.. lengkap lah sudah keriwehan gw pagi2...

Makanya sampe sana dah ga bs masuk.. gw pikir oh well... Sudah kuduga...
Ehhh mo kontek suami di mbl, lupa bawa turun hp.. duhh dodol bgt lah gw..

Yg bikin kesel mgkn krn gw bodoh mau dgrin org yg jelas2 no planning...
It never works...
Mgkn instead of kesel sama suami... Gw lbh kesel sama diri sendiri dan keadaan gw yg kyknya ga bs ngapa2in klo ga ada org lain.. krn gw diribetin dg 2 anak kecil...

Mungkin begitu...

So, instead of dealing with kekesalan gw.. what shud i do??

Terima keadaan? Emang skrg gw di season yg "ribet n riweh" ini... Dienjoy ajaaa.. nanti ga lama jg lewat dan berganti..

Be thankful for what i have...
Loving husband, happy n healthy children..

So yeah.. this morning i have failed..
But i will continue to fight utk bisa terima keadaan en be thankful for where i am right now... Pls help me God..

Slow Down!!

This week, this month actually, God teaches me to slow down...

Im exhausted.. feeling too many things to do, yet so little time.. get me frustrated and easily annoyed at the littlest thing that my kids or my husband did..

So, this week, my eldest son is still coughing, means no school and sk for a week.. i only focus in taking care of him n the baby.. somehow i find joy to stay at home with him and be able to see his growth.. his ability to help me taking care of his baby sister... At his silliness.. at his creative lego building.. at every single milestones in his life for a week.. and i am so thankful..

Finally, i can have a little peace in my chaotic world n house.. becoz true peace comes from the heart... I feel grateful..

Thank u God for teaching me to slow down and smell the roses, or in my case, to enjoy my time with the kids n my hubby.. n to connect with u too! :)

God's ministry

Last nite i woken up around 3am to nurse Kya, then i couldnt fall asleep till 5:30am..

Been thinking really hard about many things and browsing the instagram in hoping to shift my brain to Lala Land.. :p but it didnt really work..

Been thinking about parenting.. about the company God has trusted us and that we cannot really handle it right yet :(
About our family.. the kids.. about finances.. about what my parents think of me... but mostly bout the ministry..

Been thinking so hard about why is this not the season.. why cant we handle everything? Didnt we try hard enuf? Is it really not the season or is it just that we r lazy? Been thinking who will be able to replace us?? How shud we start the "advising" if no body wants to receive advise from someone like us.. who r not committed enuf.. :(

And all those negative thoughts that making dirt in my head... And makes my teeth clenched so hard for the past weeks..

Until the Voice spoke to me...
Hey my daughter.. i trusted u the ministry for u to do... But it is not yours!! They are all mine.. the TY are mine.. i love them more than u can ever love them.. i think more about them than u think about them..

Dont worry.. i will prepare the people for u to handle.. u just need to obey my command... Follow where i go...

Dont try to steal it from Me..
Coz however hard u tried.. u wont be able to do things without Me..

And after that Voice said all that need to be said...
I know i was sooooo arrogant.. i ask for God's forgiveness, coz im making everything is about ME... While its supposed to be all about HIM!

After that...
I feel all the burden has been lifted up.. i know im safe in His hand.. i can trust Him.. and He will take care of things and prepare everything according to His time..

My part is just to obey and continuously listen to His guidance..

And i fell asleep... :)

Mommyhood

This picture is just as real as it can get...

While my 4yo is sleeping next to me, my newborn is sleeping on top of me.. Its the calmest time of my day.. I wouldnt trade this moment for anything else!

I am extremely tired.. That is why i have just got up from my nap.. Haha
I always fall asleep together with them, or even before my 4yo is sleeping.. But i will not exchange my position right now for anything else..

My brain is cluttered with things to do.. I am smelly from the baby's vomit and havent even got the chance to shower.. Anyone who sees me at this state will not want to be like me.. I am just not a pleasant sight to see... But, i will not replace my mommyhood with anything else in the world!

It is such a privilege... And it is my calling to be the best mum that i can be for my children.. I know i will not regret my decision ever..

-mom-

And the drama goes on and on...

So... Skrg gw udah 23 hari pasca lahiran... And guess what?!! Pembantu gw yg baru aja balik kerja 11 hari, minta pulang kampung lagi.. Plus resign...

Rasanya campur aduk, antara senang, lega, worry jg krn not sure gmn hrs juggling everything without maid, kecewa n marah jg krn dy sangat tidak konsider keadaan org lain...

But again, gw yakin everything happen for a reason dan demi kebaikan gw jg..
Tuhan ijinin smua hal terjadi, pasti ada tujuannya...

Ada yg saranin gw buat nahan ini pembantu sampe gw selese sebulanan which is bentar lg juga.. Seminggu lagi doank... Tp akhirnya gw n suami sepakat utk let her go, lebih cepat lebih baik..

Skrg situasinya bener2 balik kyk awal deh.. Malahan minus.. Jaman E lahir, cm ada E doank.. Skrg gw ada E dan K.. Smoga Tuhan memberikan kekuatan, kesabaran, sukacita, kasih dan grace utk gw... Will try so hard not to become emotional and blame it on H.. Kesian, udah capek2 kerja, masi hrs denger keluh kesah gw lg..

Gmn ya caranya jd perfect wife?? Haha..
Ga pernah marah, smua2 beres, rumah sll rapih, baju tersimpan rapih di lemari, makanan lezat sll tersedia di meja makan, selalu sambut suami pulang dr kantor dg wajah segar tidak ada tanda2 kelelahan sedikitpun di wajah, plus senyum paling manis yg dia punya.. Mimpi kali ye?!!!

Now i understand kenapa Tuhan kasi gw ayat Yes 41:10,13 terus2an.. Gw disuruh jgn takut, Tuhan akan HELP gw... En Dia menuntun gw dg tangan kanan-Nya yg membawa kemenangan...

I know it sounds and seems overwhelming.. But i know many moms who have worst situation than myself.. And they survive... I will too... And its gonna be worth it in the end.. All the trouble, will be priceless...

I will be taking care of my kids by myself again! And my kids will learn to be independent...

I have my own plan, but God has something even better planned for me..
I will trust and follow His plan..

H-7

Ga kerasa.. Perasaan baru aja lahiran... Tau2 baby K udah mo sebulan within a week!!

Few days back, gw merenung...
Keinget lg masa2 gw lg hamil, merasa ga berdaya ngelakuin apa2.. Naik turun tangga aja rasanya berat bgt.. Bangun dr duduk di sofa aja hrs dibantu.. Dan tanpa gw sadari, gw mulai let it become my identity...

Gw mulai anggep klo diri gw itu emang lemah.. Emang ga lincah lg.. Ga bs ngerjain ini itu lg..

Buttt...

Setelah gw lahiran, tau2 badan jd jauh lbh enteng en i gain my speed back...
Gw jd bisa kerjain ini itu, beresin ini itu.. En all of a sudden jd bnyk bgt hal yg pengen dan bisa gw beresin...

Bnyk yg bilang, gw lahiran tp ga kyk abis lahiran.. Dan pelan2, i start to remember what i was like.. What im capable of doing.. Remembering who i was... Before pregnancy...

Jadi keinget soal kotbah ps A soal season... Emang dalam setiap stage kehidupan, ada season nya...

Ada season utk saving.. Ada season utk spending...
Ada season utk slow down... Ada season utk gerak cepat...

Dan smua udah di atur sama Tuhan...
Badan kita otomatis akan adaptasi sama lingkungan kita.. So, ga usah maksain diri utk bergerak or stay di season yg lama/ yg belom tiba..

Ps: kt ps. A tapinya kita ga akan bisa tau kita ini lg di season kehidupan yg mana... Kita cm bs tau pas season itu dah lewat...

Sleep training

Udah seminggu ini E belajar tidur sendiri di kamar dia sendiri (siang n malam)... Since tgl 3 Jul 2018.. Hari bersejarah nih buat gw n bapaknya.. Secara kasur bakalan jd lega.. Walo nanti bakalan ada gangguan lanjutan dr dd-nya.. Haha..

Kemaren2 ga ada masalah, begitu tidur, geletak ampe pagi...
Entah kenapa, malam ini dy dah kebangun 2x en nangis...
Smoga aja ini bakalan last time dy kebangun en bs tdr sampe pagi..
Gw dah ngantuk en hrs mompa lagi.. Huhuhu T_T

Gnite...

Officially mom of 2!

Yes, the title says it all..

Per 20 June 2018, 17:48 wib I am officially a mom of two!!

Our daughter, Kyarra Filovy Husni was born 2 weeks earlier than my expectation..

The process took around 24hours...
And finally we got to see her face to face.. :)

Just like every child is different, so is the delivery process.. This time it was more painful.. And i didnt get any induction and epidural.. So it was as natural as it can get..

Today, 26 June midnite, i am still awake, trying to find the solution for my low breastmilk supply.. And pumping manually by hand at the same time.. While listening to the relaxing piano instrumental...

I thought this 2nd round will be easier.. But i was wrong.. It actually feels like restarting from zero! With extra resposibilities (an almost 4yo toddler)..

Im so glad i have all the help that i can get, from aie, from my mom, from my in laws... While the maids are still enjoying their holidays..

My baby surely know how to pop out at the "best" timing.. :)

To be continued~

Father's day

Today, i heard the most beautiful thing from E's mouth...
When H asked him what he would be when he grow up, he said, "I want to be just like you, Daddy!"

And i cannot agree more.. I'll be glad if he can be even just half of his dad.. Coz he really is a great man... And a great dad too!

Today, the sermon at church was given by the pastor's wife and his daughter.. And the title is "A Noble Dad"..

We dont use that word much anymore these days...
To be noble has a very right meaning into it.. It means he is honorable to those around him, yet he love and teach and corrects when the children do wrongs..

One thing i know, for sure i did pick the right guy to be my husband and a dad for our children..

And i thank God each day for his presence in my life..

Fire Fighting!

If u live long enuf, i hope u will never experience what i have just experienced today..

Today i learned... If u live long enuf, u might experienced flood, snow, electricity cut, financial tightness, serious illnesses, and last but not least... FIRE in ur own home!!

This afternoon, while maid S and I were baking a cake, all of a sudden the stove exploded!! (Well, eventually we learned that its not the stove, but the gas tank was leaking..)

I was upstairs with E and maid S, while maid N was cleaning up the downstairs..
Maid N was the one who discover and saw the fire first and she panicked!
Upstairs, we heard a big BANG sound and heard maid N screaming loudly, we thought she fell or something... We ran down as quickly as we could to see whats going on.. And then it dawn on me that the stove is on FIRE!

My first reaction was to calm down and bring E away from this chaos...
While trying to remember if i have anything that can help in fire emergency.. I really wished i have the red fire fighter tank.. So i called my husband and asked him, if we have such a thing.. In the mean time, there was another BANG! And the fire is getting bigger... Once i heard my husband's answer was a "no", i tried to think of another way to put the fire down... Then i saw the tap and hose not too far from my kitchen... So quickly pull the hose and ask maid S to open the tap, while im pointing the hose at the burning stove... I dont want to wet my kitchen, but i dont have a choice.. The whole house and our safety are far more important than the kitchen.. So, yeah, just like what E said.. I was like a fire fighter... Haha..

In the mean time, i asked any maid to call the security guards to help out.. And then the guy came... And help me to put down the fire...

Once the fire is down.. We can hear "hissss" sound... And apparently, it was the gas leaking from the side...

After that adrenalin rush incident, i found myself playing many different scenarios in my head..

First of all, im so thankful to God that no one is hurt! He protects us and keeps us safe...

2ndly, im glad i decided not to leave the house today... Or else, if this kind of thing happen and im not around, i cannot imagine how the maids are going to handle it... They were absolutely panicked and couldnt do anything.. But im also glad they were there with me at that moment, or else i wouldnt be able to handle a kid and a fire by myself, while calling for help at the same time..

3rdly, im very2 thankful that we find it out quickly, at the right time and we can still saved the kitchen... Really, the harm is not as bad as it could become...

4thly, now im really2 glad that we used good quality products... So the damage is very minimal..

Bottom line is, im just so very thankful!
We are all safe... No body is injured...
Somehow, it felt just like a bad dream...
But the smell of smoke in house and the burnt stove are the real evidence it really did happened.. We have a little trauma of using stove and the gas tank... All of a sudden u dont feel safe at ur own home... But we gotta move on and try to be more cautious...

Im writing this down as a reminder to myself and my family, that God is real! Prayer does work! And God's protection knows no boundaries!

In spite of this unfortunate incident.. My heart can only be thankful and rejoice that my God is alive and He does care and protects us from harm...

Pizza Hut Goodie Bag

*sigh* baru aja ketik panjang lebar, taunya appsnya ga sengaja ketutup n smua tulisan ilang.. Pdhl udah mo selesai.. Gw coba ketik ulang ya.. ^^;

My heart leaped with joy when i saw it at my dinner table!
I know its just a goody bag from a pizza place, but to E and I its much more than that! It is a prove that God listens to and answers prayers! Even the smallest request from a little child!

So, around a month ago, E lagi main di MKG, ehhh lg tengah2 main, tau2 dia dg muka mupeng n mewek dtg ke gw en nunjuk2 ke sekelompok emak2 yg lg ngafe di deket playground.. Pertamanya gw ga tau dia mau apaan.. Akhirnya pas segerombolan emak2 itu pergi, gw br ngeh, E mau kantong goodie bag yg mereka bawa.. Gw cm bs liat dr kejauhan klo itu dr resto pizza, tp ga tau dr resto yg mana.. Udah pasti gw ga bs beliin, apalagi minta.. Kan harus ada acara baru bs dapet begituan..

Lalu, tiba2 gw kepikiran (pasti bukan gw sih sbnrnya, pasti Holy Spirit yg ingetin), utk ajak E berdoa.. Minta sama Tuhan Yesus, dan percaya, Tuhan Yesus pasti bakalan jawab tp dg cara dan wkt Dia..
Lgs lah, abis berdoa, E masi sedih krn ga lgs dpt.. Tapi gw ingetin utk sabar dan percaya aja.. (Dlm hati, deg2 ser jg..)

Ga kerasa sebulan dah berlalu...

Hari ini E outing ke Pizza Hut dr skolahnya.. Pokoknya dr kmrn dy dah excited bgt.. Trus pulang dr sana jg happy bgt.. Gw pulang sampe ke rmh, begitu liat bag-nya, lgs "deg!".. Ini bukannya goodie bag yg E mau wkt itu?
Gw tny E, inget ga wkt itu pernah minta sama Tuhan Yesus? E kan pernah kepengen punya kan? Trus skrg TY kasi hari ini...

Gw sampe terharu bgt sama Tuhan.. Gara2nya, gw aja dah lupa sama request kecil ini.. Tapi Tuhan ternyata ga lupa.. Malahan dijawab ga lama2 bgt..

Seakan2 Tuhan mo ngomong sama gw, buat jgn ragu utk minta sama Tuhan.. Jangan ragu sama janji2-Nya.. Dia adl Bapa yg baik.. Dia dengar doa.. Dia jawab doa.. Dia berikan yg terbaik pada saat yg terbaik menurut Dia.. Bagian gw adl utk percaya aja.. Taat aja.. Kenali Dia lebih lagi..

Tuhan tau apa yg gw pikir, Dia tau keraguan gw.. Pergumulan gw... Dia tau segala ketakutan2 gw.. En somehow, wkt Dia kasi goodie bag itu, its like an affirmation klo Tuhan ga lupa dan Dia akan genapi janji2-Nya...

Gw jg bersyukur bgt E bs belajar utk kenal pribadi Tuhan di usia yg sangat muda..
Tadi gw tny sama E, E tau kalo Jesus sayang E? Jesus jawab doa E.. E jawab, iya, E tau kalo Jesus bisa kasi apa2 yg E mau.. Haha.. Sangat polos tapi ya bener sihh..

Psalms 94:19 (NLT) says:
When doubts filled my mind, your comfort gave me renewed hope and cheer.

What i experienced today is so true of that verse!

When i am in doubt..
He comforts me with prophetic msgs thru Ps. Gary Hayes... He cheers me up with this little gesture that saying He knows and He cares..
He reassure me, that its okay to put my hopes on Him, even He renew my hope.. He gave me a new sense of hope that is stronger...

I guess this is what ps andy called, knowing God is the key of obedience to Christ.

How can i not obey Him? If He has the best in mind for me?

Thank you Jesus for your care and the little gesture of love.. U know exactly what i needed.. *sob sob* (terharu)

Half-boiled Egg Morning

Today, gw snap lagi sama E...
Cuma gara2 sayang ngebuang sisa telor stengah matang... :'(
(Biasanya klo sisa, pasti gw abisin, cm bumil ktnya ga boleh makan telor 1/2 mateng, jd kan gw sayang klo hrs dibuang, secara bapaknya lg keluar kota)
Berasa kyk emak paling kejam sedunia.. Mgkn dy dlm hati mikir gw ini emak tirinya yg suka nyiksa dia pas bokapnya lg ga ada.. (Kyk di sinetron2..)

Padahal blm lama, baru aja kejadian gw cekokin dy makan pare..
Mana ku tahu parenya pahit bgt kmrn itu..
Itu makan sampe berlinang2 air mata, sampe huek2 mo muntah, tapi gw ancem klo muntah hrs dimakan lg..
Sadis sih.. :'(

Abis gw sadis gitu, gw masi dikasi kiss pula sama anak gw sblm brgkt skolah..
What a sweet boy..
Mama sori ya E suka maksa km makan, sbnrnya itu krn mama syg km en syg makanannya jg.. Hehe..

Tuhan...
Bantu ak donk... Biar bisa sabar...
Ajar ak mengasihi E spt Tuhan syg E..
After all, he is YOURS..
Im sorry Father that i stumble a lot along the way.. :'(

-a gloomy wednesday morning-

O Come to the Altar

O Come to the Altar
by Elevation Worship

Are you hurting and broken within?
Overwhelmed by the weight of your sin?
Jesus is calling
Have you come to the end of yourself
Do you thirst for a drink from the well?
Jesus is calling

O come to the altar
The Father's arms are open wide
Forgiveness was bought with
The precious blood of Jesus Christ

Leave behind your regrets and mistakes
Come today there’s no reason to wait
Jesus is calling
Bring your sorrows and trade them for joy
From the ashes a new life is born
Jesus is calling

O come to the altar
The Father's arms are open wide
Forgiveness was bought with
The precious blood of Jesus Christ

O come to the altar
The Father's arms are open wide
Forgiveness was bought with
The precious blood of Jesus Christ

Oh what a savior
Isn't He wonderful?
Sing hallelujah, Christ is risen
Bow down before Him
For He is Lord of all
Sing Hallelujah, Christ is risen

Oh what a savior
Isn't He wonderful?
Sing hallelujah, Christ is risen
Bow down before Him
For He is Lord of all
Sing Hallelujah, Christ is risen

O come to the altar
The Father's arms are open wide
Forgiveness was bought with
The precious blood of Jesus Christ

O come to the altar
The Father's arms are open wide
Forgiveness was bought with
The precious blood of Jesus Christ

Bear your cross as you wait for the crown
Tell the world of the treasure you found

Harusnya jadi "Postingan Awal Tahun"

Ga kerasa waktu bergulir, tau2 udah mau mid januari.. Padahal gw belom sempet merenung ttg 2017, belom sempet bikin resolusi utk 2018.. Berasa kebawa sama arus wkt yg bergerak cepat..

Tapi untungggg aja, ada komunitas gereja en SK plus skolahan E yg sangat menjaga gw jadi ga jauh2 menyimpang dr Tuhan en tetep jaga spiritual fitness gw..

So.. Sedikit review ke akhir 2017, sebenernya gw agak pesimis soal 2018, ga seoptimis pendeta2 gw yg themenya adl TOGETHER GLORIOUS.. Belom lagi bulan2 terakhir 2017, gw diserang sama morning sickness.. So, makin lemes en ga semangat.. Tapi thank God utk opportunity bisa road trip ke Jogja bareng sama Momentous Tour (which terdiri dr 11 family and 9 mobil), gw bisa cukup having fun di akhir taon... And finally, at the end of the day, im able to testify that God is really really good..

Now, menginjak 2018.. Awalnya agak ga semangat.. Rasanya ya gitu2 aja.. Just another routine.. Not looking forward to all the busyness in life.. Skolah dah mulai lagi, kerjaan dah mulai, musti mikirin menu en belanjaan lagi, urusan meeting2 coach, urusan pelayan, urusan tugas anak, tugas SK, KTB GKGW, dst dst.. Utk sesaat, gw sempet overwhelm loh!!
Rasanya "arrghhhh!!! Give a break!!".. Baru aja berasa refresh abis liburan, lgs puff ilang gitu aja relaxnya.. Tiba2 tense lagi..

But again, im thankful for my church...
Tgl 2-22jan ini, the whole church ada doa puasa di awal tahun (as usual).. Jujur gw agak males kali ini.. Mo baca devonya aja, udah males bgt.. Somehow terlibat di pembuatan icare manna kmrn itu bikin gw mual sama yg namanya Alkitab en renungan.. Haduhh bahaya banget yaaa..
Tapi, akhirnya gw coba paksa diri gw utk baca...

Thank God banget skali lagi ada Eureka.. Ada Eunike (SK), ada IFGF...
Krn dr SK gw dapet ttg biarkan Tuhan semakin besar en gw yg semakin kecil..
Ehhh di IFGF juga bahasnya sama.. En makin diperjelas dg, letting God's plan to work in my life, not trying to control my own life and let God take control so His glory will be shown thru my life..
Di skolah juga diingetin ttg tanggung jawab ortu utk disciple anak..
Jujur, pas liburan, gw dah kendor bgt.. Ga gw monitor jg dy ntn apa.. He behave semau2 dia..
Tapi beneran, skali lagi, gw bener2 bersyukur utk komunitas2 ini yg selalu ingetin, jaga gw, en bantu kasi gw arahan..

So, resolusi tahun 2018 adalah...
Mendekatkan diri pada Tuhan, belajar lebih peka lagi, biar bener2 rencana Dia yg jadi, bukan rencana gw..
Oiya, trus gw dikasi ayat ini mulu..

Yesaya 41:10
"janganlah takut, sebab Aku menyertai engkau, janganlah bimbang, sebab Aku ini Allahmu; Aku akan meneguhkan, bahkan akan menolong engkau; Aku akan memegang engkau dengan tangan kanan-Ku yang membawa kemenangan."

So, let it be my ayat pegangan utk tahun ini... He knows im afraid and uncertain of the future.. But when my heavenly father assure me that i need not tobe afraid coz He's with me, coz He himself will help me and hold me with His own victorious hand! What a beautiful and encouraging promise!!

What a great way to start 2018, dont u think?! ;)

E ngompol lagi!!

Tadi malam E ngompol..
Dia sempat bangunin bilang mau pipis jam stengah 12 malam, tapi diajak jalan ke toilet, ehh malah nangis dan rewel.. Akhirnya malah gw marahin... En krn gw sendiri masi ngantuk, ujung2nya gw ketiduran ditengah2 rajukannya dia..
Kata suami sih ada nangis 1 jam, ga ada yg ladenin.. Krn asumsi kita, elo kan udah gede, jalan sendiri donk... Emangnya masi bayi, ga bilang mau apa.. Udah dibilang mo ditemenin, ehhh malah dy mandek di pojok kasur en malah akhirnya gegulingan sendiri.. Tp setelah nangis2 gt, dy diem en ketiduran sendiri.. Kyknya bener2 kecapekan sih.. Soalnya brgkt skolah pagi, tp tdrnya malem en ga tdr siang.. Lengkap lah sudah!

Oh another thing yg bikin dia nangis kesel penuh emosi adl, dia paling ga suka klo tidur sendirian di kasur dia.. Apalagi klo tdrnya ditemenin, eh pas bangun sendirian.. Gitu lohh.. Jd gw stengah ngerasa bersalah tp bercampur jg dengan kesal..

Lalu jam 4an subuh, dy ngomong "E mau bobo sama mama di bawah", trus lgs gw turutin, krn dia udah berhasil ngomong tanpa pake nangis en mewek2..
Ehhh.. Ternyata, celana dia dah basah lembab2 gt donk... Gw yakin ini bukan baru ngompol, soalnya udah dingin..
Ya ampunnn!! Jd rasa bersalah double.. Jadi dia semalem nangis2 en ga mo beranjak dr pojokan tuh krn dy dah kebelet bgt, tp dy ngompol en ga berani blg, or too tired to tell.. Nangis2 krn ga nyaman, terus sampe ketiduran sendiri... Huaahhh!! Rasanya kyk ibu yg kejam banget.. Anak gw biarin tidur kedinginan tanpa selimut, sendirian, dg celana yg basah, nangis jg gw cuekin pula.. Malah ditinggal tdr..

Tapi pembelaan gw, dia kan dah bisa ngomong, knp ga bilang?!
Kan udah bukan baby lagi...
Gpp, jd ortu hrs bisa tough love.. Klo dia dikit2 nangis aja gw dah samperin, lama2 jd manja..

Tapi yahhh dillemaaa!! T_T

Ihikkk.. Jd skrg, gw pny pe-er ganti sprei en keringin kasur deh.. Huhuhu.. Dijamin bau pesing.. :(

Oh well, at least gw berhasil bikin dia ngomong jam 4am.. Hehe..
Suatu keberhasilan kecil yg perlu di celebrate..